when did we all grow distant?

it has become apparent to me for some time that I am not as close to my relatives and childhood friends as we once were. It's something out of our control, we grow apart to live our seperate lives. I wish I remained somewhat of a open communication with them but oh well. Now that we are on break from classes from college. I wonder what will happen since I lack social interaction with the few friends that I was able to hold on to. I'm not saying I'm a complete loner. My mom has that concern for me and it bothers me when she brings upon the subject. I made the conclusion that I would rather talk to them versus hanging out but nothing can make up for social interaction. If I am able to hang out with a few friends during the break I'll be fine. I already hang out with a friend once a week during classes.

freedom of 'no' religion?

lately I've heard a lot of lawsuits and issues that come up about the freedom of religion and how the atheists are getting their way about dominating the race. My mom's views are simple: "If you are an atheist and you value nothing in religious symbols or artifacts then why should it bother you so much?" Someone complained to a Costco employee that they didn't want to hear Christmas music. And now I watched a news story about the atheist organization in my state making a protest and not participate in the silence of prayer. Good then, if you don't believe in a God then the more power to yourself but you don't have to make a big deal about it. This country was found on basic rights and the freedom of religion is one of them.

studying for important exams

so this is about the time where college students like myself are preparing and studying really hard for their final exams and say a good bye to the end of yet another semester right? As a student at a community college, I have yet to take a really difficult college class (well I took one, last spring but I managed) And this semester it hasn't been all that bad as far as content goes. My math class is a refresher course of what I learned in Algebra I (which was my highest high school math course I got to) and I remember all of the topics and know how to do most of the problems. One I don't really have a final in, just a presentation. My English class, I just had to hand in a portfolio (no pressure there) and my Health, Safety and Nutrition course is common sense when it comes to preparing healthy meals for children. Atleast I am not pressured to do well at some university like the Ivy League universities or state colleges.

one's dumbwitted actions leads to...

a few days ago, my father was telling me that my former high school band wasn't going to continue their *educational field trip to either Virginia or South Carolina (or wherever the competition is being held for that year) any longer. They used to go every year but had to cut down to every other due to budget cuts. Well the reason that they had to stop attending altogether is because of an incident that happened my graduating year. Someone had the brilliant (use of sarcasm here) of making brownies and putting marijuana in them (aka: 'pot brownies') What a great idea. So not only did the girl didn't know what was inside the casual dessert, but she had a empty stomach and on a hot day, that isn't a good combination. (We were at Busch Gardens for the awards ceremony, and it was also our relaxation day to spend with our band buddies) She was admitted into the local hospital's emergency room and had her stomach pumped. What really gets me mad is that one person did a stupid move and it ruins it for everyone else. They ruined the school band's reputation I'm sure and now the good kids are beingn punished as well. Not to mention it was a educational field trip and that drug tolerance is never allowed. So the mastermind of this plan was expelled, what a bummer because he was a senior too. Yes I understand people do whatever they want wether it be legal or not but please, think ahead of the consequences and don't be stupid enough to carryout such a dumb plan.

getting along with the people you interact with

people see each other everyday of our lives. Sometimes, people see each other once and that'll be it. The people we choose to associate ourselves with (in our little social circle of friends) is an important aspect in our social development. What draws us to become friends is the common interests we share, what kind of personalities they have and other factors. So we have to find some common ground if we want to remain on a friendship level with them. We might disagree on something and the way we choose to handle it is important. If you share some kind of connection with your friends and loved ones, it may not matter how bad the arguement can turn out, you'll always end up on a positive note. Although, there are circumstances that can change a person's relationship with the other person and can alter it in some way or have it completely ruined. That's another thing too to remind yourself, people change throughout their lives. If you really want to continue a positive relationship, it can work if you put through the effort and even if it doesn't turn out the way you'd hope, atleast it wasn't time wasted because it was for a good cause (in most cases).

obscene and crude acts

this entry is about my stance on porn. I am against it, there I made it clear and I'll tell you why. I believe that those actions, may it be discrete or openly remain behind the doors of your bedroom. I even tried watching the softer version and even that was too much for me to handle. So you can't tell me I haven't tried it because I have and I still don't like it. To me, that's watching somebody's son/daughter and I don't care if the participant was willing or signed a bunch of agreements. That is immoral in my book. Originally I thought it was a form of cheating on your significant other but I later understood that it's not what everyone considers cheating, I still wouldn't want my partner to watch it though. I am okay with watching hentai, but only the softer versions of that. This is just one of my issues that I have a firm backbone on and I won't back down.

and so the holiday decorating begins!

well it's finally the holiday season, and my mother brought all the home decor down from the attic. My sister and my job is usually decorating the artifical Christmas tree and it's a huge tree. My mom will want every single ornament on that damn tree. She was complaining how my Dad doesn't have any holiday spirit and now I can see why, I'm no 'bah-humbug' myself but seriously, is it really necessary to cover every branch with every ornament that we own? I guess it's not that bad, my mom actually threw out some of the older stuff we had. I understand the true meaning of Christmas, it's not about the presents (although they are a nice addition) it's spending time with family and friends and understanding that we have each other to lean back on when times are difficult. Now I understand why one of my cousins is all psyched she was all excited before Thanksgiving even started haha.

good skills in parenting

frequently, my mom would ask me to go do chores. However, it isn't asked like a normal question would be. She would be like "Jess, want to get the laundry for me?" That way I have no choice but to answer, "yeah sure" On one hand, it's like why don't you just tell me instead of asking? On the other, it's nice of her to ask, instead of barking out orders. I think this is a good parenting skill that she developed while raising my sister and I.

being nice and kind has it's own reward

I was taught to respect all people, and not to hold grudges. This might seem tough at certain times but it really is a reward in itself. Maybe you're in a difficult situation, and someone you run into will help you out in return of a good deed you did for them. I also believe in the idea of 'bad things happen to good people' and I can count a handful of times when that has happened to either me or my family or friends. Karma eventually will find it's way back to you, and it repays three times.

stopping ourselves of using certain words

we all have done it, called each other or someone else (or even ourselves) a 'retard' or that's so 'gay' instead of stupid. Me being inflicted with both terms and groups of people is saying one thing but saying it and thinking that we aren't harming someone else that isn't present is another. A young teenager joking around using those words is just as stupid. If you're old enough to undertand the latest fad going around, then your old enough to have some common sense and stop yourself before having that word come out of your mouth. So think twice before you say something, you don't know who you're insulting. This isn't to say I'm perfect, hell I know nobody is, but I've gotten better and earned self-awareness.

my ironic story that I wrote

a few years ago I had the idea of writing a story, I titled it 'burning heaven.' Ironic right? Anyways, I used the idea for a final paper that I did for my Lit & Comp class. I had the idea of a girl who had a posessed spirit inside of her. I wanted to write a narrative about the rare and strange occurrences of demonic possession. I thought “what could happen to a character when they are faced with an inner power struggle and what lengths a friend would have to take to save someone she really cares about.” I never got around to give it a decent ending.

corporate america is shitty

who else thinks corporate America should burn in a ditch? I do! Not that I don't think being proud of what you earn/do for a living is a bad idea, I just don't like how one day there will be no middle class thanks to all these big markets closing in on the gap of not being able to live comfortably on a normal salary. What do they want us to do? Work a million hours a week just to get by? It may seem like that's the inevitable choice we will all have to make. I wouldn't be surprised if I'll die working, that seems likely every day that goes by.

she thinks she's the ldr expert

so there's this girl I came to know who currently is in a long distance relationship. I don't know what is about her but it irritates the hell out of me when she thinks she knows everything there is to disprove any arguement about not trusting your partner while being long distant. I mean I know she's a human and she has feelings but she's just one of the people who irks me to no end. How did I come across her online profile you may ask? The answer is simple. My last relationship was a online one and I admit I was the one who was stupid and thinking it'll last when my ex-boyfriend didn't talk to me after three months of meeting me. I learned my lesson and finally got the hint and finally broke my end of it a year and three months after pursuing it. Now I know it doesn't matter how long a couple has been together, all that matters is how much you and your significant other have been through. But to me, it seems like all she cares about is proving everyone in the ldr community how long they have been together. I think once she is granted her immigration visa and get married to her boyfriend that she supposedly loves, she'll realize that after a couple of weeks/months that living together with someone all the time will drive her insane and the two will break up.

a little about me

my name is Jessica, but I'd prefer if you called me Jess. I am straight and I'm 20 years old. I currently live in a town in CT. I have a boyfriend named David. We've been dating for a little more than a year and we love each other, plus we're happy together. We are five years apart in age but that doesn't matter to us. I am going to community college, working on a AS degree in ECE if you don't know what that means, it stands for Early Childhood Education. I did the math and I should be graduating from ACC in August of '12. The salary isn't high but it's what I love doing. That is caring, helping children learn, and being a positive influence in their young lives. I have one younger sister, we're seven years apart. I hope to get my independence and my parents believe getting a college education is the first step.