Tuesday, May 17, 2011
what we choose to pass down
when it comes to that time in our lives when we choose to reproduce and raise our own children, we wonder what we'll teach them. Whether they be adopted, by surrogate or by natural conception; delivery. We wonder what we'll stories we'll share and what lessons we would teach. Maybe we'll pass down family heirlooms or other valued pieces of life. There are experiences we have had but wish our children will not endure. I could go on and on...
sweet music fills my ears
(this is another inspired entry from a friend, she makes good posts ^^ )
I think the reason why the music I like is because it helps me in times of need and no one is avaliable to talk it through. My boyfriend said I got him back into Linkin Park. For any of you who don't know the majority of my music taste is Alternative Rock and other subgenres. In turn, David got me into a little Techno and those subgenres. Before I met my lovely partner, I had a playlist titled "Easy Listening" and filled that up with any calming; relaxing songs that made me mellow out if I was tensed or had really bad nerves. Speaking of which, once I get my new computer (a present from my parents hopefully soon) I'm gonna hoard all m iTunes giftcards and ask for plenty more since I'll need them and repurchase what I haven't already on iTunes to make it legal and then transfer it all to my new computer.
I think the reason why the music I like is because it helps me in times of need and no one is avaliable to talk it through. My boyfriend said I got him back into Linkin Park. For any of you who don't know the majority of my music taste is Alternative Rock and other subgenres. In turn, David got me into a little Techno and those subgenres. Before I met my lovely partner, I had a playlist titled "Easy Listening" and filled that up with any calming; relaxing songs that made me mellow out if I was tensed or had really bad nerves. Speaking of which, once I get my new computer (a present from my parents hopefully soon) I'm gonna hoard all m iTunes giftcards and ask for plenty more since I'll need them and repurchase what I haven't already on iTunes to make it legal and then transfer it all to my new computer.
almost there in completing my pathway to higher education
so the Spring 2011 semester just ended for me and I only have a required 24 credits to complete and that sweet Associates in Science degree is what I can call mine. I still have plans on continuing my education of course, there's not a job out there in any field that'll get you a secure job to support yourself. If I didn't take summer classes this time I'd be at ACC for longer than I'd like (I am still a little delayed than I'd like to be) but hey, you can't rush success. I'll find my final grades next week hopefully I did well.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
why the paranormal intrigues me
for many years, I had a interest in the paranormal field. I believe in spirits but not ghosts it's weird I know because people are saying "aren't they the same?" Well they might but I think there's a difference. A spirit can be any entity, a ghost needs more energy to form an actual figure to protray to live up to it's reputation. I am familiar with the equipment and vocabulary that comes along with the paranormal field. Like what a rap, incubi/succubi, EVP, cold spots are etc. There are shows I like to watch (some anime too believe it or not) like Black Butler, Ghost Stories, Ghost Hunters, A Haunting etc.
I may have had a few experiences that turned me from skeptic to believer. To all the skeptics I've only got one thing to say: "there are some things that logic can't completely prove, so maybe it would be best to believe in something that could be true, (or may not whatever works in your favor)" For me, I think of it like this, I believe in the spirit world or other dimension that co exists with our own to make me sleep a little easier at night. If I do leave this earth I can end up in that afterlife. which makes me think what that prayer came from
"now I lay me down to sleep,
if I shall die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take."
this does not mean I am changing religions because that would go against the commandments but enough of that. I just think that "heaven" can have one or many levels the same with dare I say it, "hell" I remember a Greek/Latin (forgot what culture it came from) a tale about this messenger who accompanied this entity and they went on a journey through the different levels of "hell" and the deeper you went, the colder it got. Ironically enough, each level was designated to that specific sin ungrateful souls committed.
I may have had a few experiences that turned me from skeptic to believer. To all the skeptics I've only got one thing to say: "there are some things that logic can't completely prove, so maybe it would be best to believe in something that could be true, (or may not whatever works in your favor)" For me, I think of it like this, I believe in the spirit world or other dimension that co exists with our own to make me sleep a little easier at night. If I do leave this earth I can end up in that afterlife. which makes me think what that prayer came from
"now I lay me down to sleep,
if I shall die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take."
this does not mean I am changing religions because that would go against the commandments but enough of that. I just think that "heaven" can have one or many levels the same with dare I say it, "hell" I remember a Greek/Latin (forgot what culture it came from) a tale about this messenger who accompanied this entity and they went on a journey through the different levels of "hell" and the deeper you went, the colder it got. Ironically enough, each level was designated to that specific sin ungrateful souls committed.
nightmares and daydreams
(if anyone can guess where this title came from, you are awesome)
so this post is inspired from another friend who had a similar topic. Everyone has dreams and they can be as real or imaginary as what your mind can come up with.
there was one dream where I remembered very well, it must have been vivid in my mind's eye. Although it wasn't realistic or atleast it couldn't have been. It was a scary one at that. I was only a little girl in this dream. I was convinced by a group of people to get this one woman to bring her down stairs into a basement. Little did I know (before it was too late) their real intention; that was to end her life. The next thing I remember was that I was standing, peeking over the staircase and there was this flash of green light and the woman's voice screaming out and I felt extremely guilty like I knew this plan the whole time but it only dawned at me then.
there are other dreams that protray what had already happened. This dream was when I was seven years old and I had spent the next few days over my paternal grandparents while my parents were at the hospital having my sister. I guess I didn't get the message that I was supposed to ride the bus home instead I thought that someone like my either of my grandparents or my mother was supposed to pick me up. Instead I spent a hour and half patiently waiting. I ended up getting upset when I realized it was getting too late. That night I had a nightmare thinking that my family forgot about me. I remember opening my eyes kicking my legs and then shutting my eyes again. That morning I realized that I accidently kicked my grandma while she slept next to me ): because I was too scared to spend the night up in the attic by myself so I begged her to keep me company.
I went through a phase where after I watched a episode of 'Ghost Hunters', other YouTube video of a 'suspected ghost' or a paranormal show, and after closing my eyes in a dark room I would see that image in my mind's eye. The other times when that happened was when I saw a scary movie like 2011's 'Insidious' and I was afraid I'd get nightmares after seeing what they called and protrayed the 'lipstick demon' and it reminds me of whatever I think the devil actually looks like. ooh frightening!
and there are also the pleasant moments you experience you don't want to end or afraid you'll wake up and it'll be over and I think we all know what that feels like.
so this post is inspired from another friend who had a similar topic. Everyone has dreams and they can be as real or imaginary as what your mind can come up with.
there was one dream where I remembered very well, it must have been vivid in my mind's eye. Although it wasn't realistic or atleast it couldn't have been. It was a scary one at that. I was only a little girl in this dream. I was convinced by a group of people to get this one woman to bring her down stairs into a basement. Little did I know (before it was too late) their real intention; that was to end her life. The next thing I remember was that I was standing, peeking over the staircase and there was this flash of green light and the woman's voice screaming out and I felt extremely guilty like I knew this plan the whole time but it only dawned at me then.
there are other dreams that protray what had already happened. This dream was when I was seven years old and I had spent the next few days over my paternal grandparents while my parents were at the hospital having my sister. I guess I didn't get the message that I was supposed to ride the bus home instead I thought that someone like my either of my grandparents or my mother was supposed to pick me up. Instead I spent a hour and half patiently waiting. I ended up getting upset when I realized it was getting too late. That night I had a nightmare thinking that my family forgot about me. I remember opening my eyes kicking my legs and then shutting my eyes again. That morning I realized that I accidently kicked my grandma while she slept next to me ): because I was too scared to spend the night up in the attic by myself so I begged her to keep me company.
I went through a phase where after I watched a episode of 'Ghost Hunters', other YouTube video of a 'suspected ghost' or a paranormal show, and after closing my eyes in a dark room I would see that image in my mind's eye. The other times when that happened was when I saw a scary movie like 2011's 'Insidious' and I was afraid I'd get nightmares after seeing what they called and protrayed the 'lipstick demon' and it reminds me of whatever I think the devil actually looks like. ooh frightening!
and there are also the pleasant moments you experience you don't want to end or afraid you'll wake up and it'll be over and I think we all know what that feels like.
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