inhumane mother

so I don't know if everyone has heard that the Casey Anthony trial is currently going on but I don't understand how a mother can cause harm or even end their child's life? It breaks my heart ): As a representative/advocate for children's care; education, there is no logical reason for doing such a graveful sin. How can you be a good person if you end someone's life? It just makes me so angry and hurt that someone has the will to do that. Supposedly Casey didn't want to have the responsibility for caring for her daughter which explains the pictures of her partying hard a week later Caylee's death. Excuse me but that doesn't give you the right to end someone's life, nothing ever justifies murder. Being labeled "mentally incapable to stand trial" may well be understandable, but in my opinion a pathetic excuse. Also, why did it take a month to file a missing person's report? Right there something isn't right.


this reminds me of a time where I found a fascination with crimes of this matter. One case particularly a mother killed all of her five children by drowning them in the bathtub. I can't believe that for a second that I would possibly end up like that. I feel shameful as it is worrying that I'll screw up caring for another family's child nevermind my own.

what we choose to pass down

when it comes to that time in our lives when we choose to reproduce and raise our own children, we wonder what we'll teach them. Whether they be adopted, by surrogate or by natural conception; delivery. We wonder what we'll stories we'll share and what lessons we would teach. Maybe we'll pass down family heirlooms or other valued pieces of life. There are experiences we have had but wish our children will not endure. I could go on and on...

sweet music fills my ears

(this is another inspired entry from a friend, she makes good posts ^^ )
I think the reason why the music I like is because it helps me in times of need and no one is avaliable to talk it through. My boyfriend said I got him back into Linkin Park. For any of you who don't know the majority of my music taste is Alternative Rock and other subgenres. In turn, David got me into a little Techno and those subgenres. Before I met my lovely partner, I had a playlist titled "Easy Listening" and filled that up with any calming; relaxing songs that made me mellow out if I was tensed or had really bad nerves. Speaking of which, once I get my new computer (a present from my parents hopefully soon) I'm gonna hoard all m iTunes giftcards and ask for plenty more since I'll need them and repurchase what I haven't already on iTunes to make it legal and then transfer it all to my new computer.

almost there in completing my pathway to higher education

so the Spring 2011 semester just ended for me and I only have a required 24 credits to complete and that sweet Associates in Science degree is what I can call mine. I still have plans on continuing my education of course, there's not a job out there in any field that'll get you a secure job to support yourself. If I didn't take summer classes this time I'd be at ACC for longer than I'd like (I am still a little delayed than I'd like to be) but hey, you can't rush success. I'll find my final grades next week hopefully I did well.

why the paranormal intrigues me

for many years, I had a interest in the paranormal field. I believe in spirits but not ghosts it's weird I know because people are saying "aren't they the same?" Well they might but I think there's a difference. A spirit can be any entity, a ghost needs more energy to form an actual figure to protray to live up to it's reputation. I am familiar with the equipment and vocabulary that comes along with the paranormal field. Like what a rap, incubi/succubi, EVP, cold spots are etc. There are shows I like to watch (some anime too believe it or not) like Black Butler, Ghost Stories, Ghost Hunters, A Haunting etc.

I may have had a few experiences that turned me from skeptic to believer. To all the skeptics I've only got one thing to say: "there are some things that logic can't completely prove, so maybe it would be best to believe in something that could be true, (or may not whatever works in your favor)" For me, I think of it like this, I believe in the spirit world or other dimension that co exists with our own to make me sleep a little easier at night. If I do leave this earth I can end up in that afterlife. which makes me think what that prayer came from
"now I lay me down to sleep,
if I shall die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take."

this does not mean I am changing religions because that would go against the commandments but enough of that. I just think that "heaven" can have one or many levels the same with dare I say it, "hell" I remember a Greek/Latin (forgot what culture it came from) a tale about this messenger who accompanied this entity and they went on a journey through the different levels of "hell" and the deeper you went, the colder it got. Ironically enough, each level was designated to that specific sin ungrateful souls committed.