this snow is ri·dic·u·lous

connecticut has seen about over two feet of snow in the past month alone and it's plain amazing, I've never seen that much in as long I can remember. I know I've told people that we live in New England but even I have gotten to the point of "this has got to stop!" Luckily I'm in college and not in the public school system anymore, cause if I were, I'd be so freaking angry about the days I'd have to make up (like my sister) and she's up to six missed days due to the stupid snow. It's made my mom a snow widow because my father has been gone working overtime plowing it. The town I live in, forget it they do a crappy job as it is. The amount of snow we've been getting has delayed the trash and recycle collecting by a day or more. I just want Spring to come and fast please.

a love/hate paradox of words

I noticed this more when I attended high school and when I talk with the people whom would antagonize me. I often would give them compliments, how does that make sense? I don't believe you resolve fights when you fight fire with fire (in this case, words) because it would grow larger and harder to manage. I was never good at sticking up for myself so I learned to just be polite and hope they feel bad for treating me poorly.

what happened to commitment?

it's sad that relationships don't last in general. I found out that my cousin's 'soon-to-be' ex-husband is divorcing her while she's seven months pregnant with their second child. It really makes me sick how a seemingly healthy relationship can not last. I guess commitment has a shelf-life expectancy. Luckily, there are some loyal people out there and my boyfriend is one of them. He said to me when we were became serious about our feelings and our goals that he's a 'one-woman' kind of man and would never betray my trust. Out of my parents' siblings, my own parents' relationship has lasted the longest and luckily, they are still together. I don't expect my life to be perfect, just to be comfortable and I'm sure my happiness will be enough to make it last.

new year, another chance

so it is a new year. That means another chance to make things right or a chance to mend things over. We only get one of these as each year passes by so why don't take advantage of it? Now some people lack motivation to put forth the effort to our new year resolutions. That doesn't mean it's impossible to achieve, it simply means that if we really aspire to achieve the goal, then we will work even harder to do so. We will have our moments of self-doubt but it makes the journey more worth it.

when did we all grow distant?

it has become apparent to me for some time that I am not as close to my relatives and childhood friends as we once were. It's something out of our control, we grow apart to live our seperate lives. I wish I remained somewhat of a open communication with them but oh well. Now that we are on break from classes from college. I wonder what will happen since I lack social interaction with the few friends that I was able to hold on to. I'm not saying I'm a complete loner. My mom has that concern for me and it bothers me when she brings upon the subject. I made the conclusion that I would rather talk to them versus hanging out but nothing can make up for social interaction. If I am able to hang out with a few friends during the break I'll be fine. I already hang out with a friend once a week during classes.