I dislike therapists

and here's why: it is my belief that I don't need to pay hundreds or thousands of dollars to some shrink to solve my own problems.
but then, I remembered how much my junior high counselor helped the pain of my late grandpa's death back in 2001 (no he didn't die on 9/11, he died of unknown causes but we believe he suffered a heart attack or his heart just stopped working.) I was a month short of celebrating my eleventh birthday and I miss him a lot from time to time just like I miss my grandma too.
I would like to say that there isn't anything a therapist can do that I couldn't to help my own problems but that would be a lie.

occupy movement: suicide prevention

the occupy movements have been going on for a long time now. I heard that not one but two young sixteen year olds committed suicide in less than a few weeks apart. I am deeply saddened over the whole thing. Not that I knew them personally, but I went to high school with the girl's older sister.
I found a facebook page in memory of the girl's suicide. It's mission was to promote prevention of suicide, obviously. Now this makes sense that a few of the people on my facebook friend list have said they'd go to the suicide prevention hug day at the local mall. It was probably in their memory. I remember Kelly, she only lived down the street from my house. Whenever I take a walk, I sometimes pass by her garden her friends made for her. I say a prayer for her and her family.
I always thought what could be going through a person's mind if they're contemplating ending their life. Thoughts of loneliness, isolation, revenge. Not only does your life belong to that individual but to everyone surrounding them. So I hope nobody comes to that awful conclusion. No matter how terrible one's life might seem, there's a healthy way out.

I was accepted!!!

horray for me I was accepted to Bay Path college for next fall to further my degree in early child education! I am also eligible for 1 to 4 scholarships. Now my next goal is getting my driver's license. I have to ^^ I will have to take the MTEL tests and pass them, if I do that successfully I will be certified to teach in the state of MA (:

time goes on, and no recent entry?

yeah, sorry guys but it looks like I neglected this blog for months. I guess I don't have much to talk about but I went to the casino this past weekend to gamble for the first official time. Despite I lost more than I won ha that's usually how it goes at those places. It was fun though, got to see friends I haven't seen in a while and I'm in my second to last semester at ACC yay me for almost being done. I just hope I finish pretty decent. I'll tell yah, taking biology about four years since the last time I took it (my sophomore year) the information comes back but it's kinda rusty ):
oh and I forgot to mention about that earthquake, turns out it was on my 21st birthday haha. A friend of mine said "the earth is saying happy birthday by giving you a handshake" lol
while at the casino, my friend of mine who's twenty-six wants her first child soon and I'm kinda worried for her since she informed me that she's greater risk for postpartum depression since she's short and skinny. I hope the best for her.

so does this mean I'm fully developed?

I went up a size in pants no big deal right? From size 7 to a 9. Well I did the same in a shirt size. From medium to a large. At first I thought “oh crap have I got to a unhealthy weight?” because you know I can become self-conscious at times like right now… No it turns out that my bust size has grew I thought I’d stay at a 34B but then I remember how my chest feels suffocated some times. Oh well I guess I never expected to grow any more than I had. I’m 5’8” and hearing that I’m still developing at my age is a little frightening at first.